What's Eating Me

Well, it seems lately like the all consuming thing in my life is FOOD! That is what's eating me.

I am over weight, have been for some time... so food is constantly an issue. I hate to be that person who thinks about food all the time. I never used to be (maybe that's how I got into this situation in the first place!) But now I'm trying to get back to some familiar form of myself - ie. a skinnier form of myself. So I've started trying to think about the food I eat. I don't enjoy this at all. Especially since you put on top of that the fact that I'm the grocery shopper and personal chef for everyone in my household. I would probably be happy just eating veggies and salads 90% of the time but that wouldn't go over well with anyone else who lives here. I married a meat and potatoes man who want big meals and lots of them. That's fine - except along with that deal comes a wife who eats big meals and lots of them.

Yes, yes, I know I could just NOT eat what he's eating - but that's easier said than done. I do enjoy food - another reason I'm in this situation... And if I've spent half the morning making a lasagna, or enchiladas, or roasting a whole chicken, I'll be damned if I don't get to eat some myself! And yes, I also know I could eat smaller portions... but our lunch meal is the only real meal I eat all day. I skip breakfast (bad, you don't have to tell me). And I usually just make a sandwich or some other type of quick toddler food for dinner when it's just me and the kids. And dinner usually hits around 430 or 5pm.... So by 830 when all the kids are asleep my tummy starts to rumble and I find myself scouring the kitchen for something - anything to eat. Bad habits.... whatever.

Then we have our latest food issue - the 2 year old. I have never had to fight with someone so much just to eat a meal!
"What do you want?"
"peanut butter jelly sanwich"
"Okay, here you go"
"NO! I don't WANT IT!"
Seriously - every meal, no matter what the food, same story. I want this, No I don't, Yes I do, No I don't. THEN DON"T EAT! But it's probably illegal to starve a child. I guess she does drink 3 glasses of milk a day - she can liv eon that until the phase is over... that and crackers. I have to constantly adjust what we eat to create something appealing to her and for what, for her to turn around and push it across the table, or worse, onto the floor. I think I quit. Eat or don't child - you probably won't starve.

And then there's the baby. He is starting to eat real food.... Well, he should be. I'm slcking on that as well. To have to make three different meals at a time is just too much for me. He's still on the babyfood, and that's fine. But I know he could be eating more table food if I would just make it for him. Mushed up veggies, mashed potatoes, maybe scrambled eggs.... Myabe I will just start making all that and calling it "kid food". I could serve it to both kids and whoever eats it gets to eat - whoever doesn't, doesn't!

Maybe I could just quit doing anything else around the house and just cook full time! Salads for me. Steak or Burgers for the husband. PB & J's or mac & cheese for the toddler. And homemade babyfood/table food for the baby! As soon as we've cleared the table I could just start on the dishes and the next meal! I think that's a brilliant plan!

On that note, I have to go make dinner.... Here is a direct quote from now:
"Nola, what do you want for dinner?"
"I want star snacks. I don't want to eat dinner!" (star snacks are the baby disovable puff things that she insists are for her and not her brother)
"What about a sandwich?"
"I. DON'T. WANT. TO. EAT. DINNER!"