Somewhat on Track

This is another post about my fat. I know - fascinating, right?

I lost 12 pounds... then accidentally gained back around five. Now I'm back to my 12 lost. I started on January 1st and aimed to loose a pound a week. After consulting my calendar I realize it's been nine weeks. Around four weeks in I decided that I was doing so well that I would up my goal to two pounds a week so I could be closer to my goal by summer...

According to my original plan I'm rocken and rollin... 3 pounds ahead.
According to my revised plan I'm kinda sucken it... 6 pounds behind.

So I think I will consider myself somewhat on track and just keep on keepin on.

I have one more pound to loose before I drop down to the next 'decade' in pounds. By that I mean counting by tens... so if I weighed in the 330's and was about to drop into the 320's... you know, the decades of weight.... anyway... one pound to go till I move down another decade.... and I'm not gonna tell you what that decade is...

So yep - that is all.

Hot Fries on My Thighs

Now is that a blog post title or what?!

So yesterday we went to Target as a family... while walking in to the store there was a big mess of something on the parking lot. As we walked through it Kirk and I both said... "Yum." Not your typical response to parking lot messes... but this mess was a spilled bag of Hot Fries. Some walked on, some driven over, most pulverized into dust... but a few were recognizable enough to make both of us think, Oooo! Hot Fries! (We both had skipped lunch but I doubt the reaction would have been any different had we both just eaten.)

Target done, on to the gas station. And what does Kirk come out of the mini art with? Yes. Ladies and Gentleman, he bought a big bag of Hot Fries!

I tried not to eat too many of them since my weight loss quest has taken a turn for the worse... I lost twelve pounds and recently gained several of those back. So now I'm trying to re-double my efforts and get back on the skinny train. Hot Fries don't equal skinny. Not unless I'm planning on being a finger down the throat kinda girl, which I'm not. So I let him eat more than half the bag while I just nibbled.

But then.... I went to Cayce's last night to play games and drink some wine. I was home around midnight and no one was awake but me and that damn bag of Hot Fries. There was about a third of the bag left... I sat down to finish a recorded episode of Oprah... and damned if those Hot Fries didn't just jump into my mouth and go straight to my thighs! Yep... shamefully I ate the rest of the bag. But on a lighter note, somehow this morning I weigh one pound less than yesterday morning.... so maybe... just maybe... Hot Fries are the key to weight loss success? No? Yeah, probably not. Damn!

So this is Monday and a new day, a new week... and I am going to stick to my workouts and try to stay far far away from Hot Fries and all their lovely relatives (aka junk food). Here's hoping I can report some more success next week on pounds lost... and not Hot Fries devoured. Ooops.

Oh Yea! Tuesday!

I have nothing to blog about... but it's been a while so I thought I'd just start typing and see what came out...

I'm kinda stuck in my weight loss quest. I made it to twelve pounds lost... then gained two back.... then lost one... then another... then gained one.... So I've been stuck between ten and twelve pounds for around two weeks now. I guess that means I need to do more, push harder, be more conscious of what I'm eating (that has slipped considerably since babyshower/superbowl weekend). I need to change up my workout, which so far has just been to ride my stationary bike 3-4 times a week. Anyway... that's that. "Yea" for the solid ten lost and "Crap" for the forty still to go....

Kids doing fine... Logan has become a computer whiz. He is constantly playing games on the internet without any assistance. Doing puzzles online and learning to count to ten. I thought Nola was going to be my baby genius... but he's giving her a serious run for her money!

Kirk hates his job. Not quitting, but looking for other options. Long story short, he was put into a restaurant that was quickly falling downhill and they wanted him to jump in and turn it around and make it great. And taking a pay-cut while being expected to work miracles is no one's cup of tea.... so he wants out. Don't blame him at all....

I haven't taken more than a handful of pictures (of anything - artful or family) in two months! What is my problemo? I think the winter blues are getting to me. No outside, no sunshine, no camera. Oh Spring... Where are you when I need you?

So my plan today is to take some pictures... of something... anything.... maybe. Maybe tomorrow I will put up a post with photos!

Week Three

I am at the end of week three of this year and of working out. And it's going pretty good!

So far I've lost 9 pounds. NINE!

I was aiming for three and I got nine. And I'm realizing that I enjoy working out. It's like a break from the kids, I can listen to my headphones really loud (if someone is watching the kids... if it's just us then I only listen in one ear...) and it's getting so much easier as I go. And the fact that I'm actually seeing results is keeping me going. So yep. That's it. Nine....

Week Two of 2011

So the second week of the year is almost over...

I have lost four pounds. That's twice my goal! So I'm on track. Who-da Thunk It?

This morning:
Nola: I need a wipe! Where are the wipes?!
Me (still in bed): I don't know... get a paper towel!
Nola: Noooo.... I need a wipe.
Me (getting up quickly): Why do you need a wipe?
Nola(with hands behind back): For my hands....
Me: Why? Show me your hands. (I got and handed her a wipe)
Nola (running away): thanks....
Me (following her): Show me your hands... What did you eat?
Nola: Nothing
Me: SHOW ME YOUR HANDS!
Nola: I can't....
Me (grabbing her hands and turning her around): What is that?
Nola (with black on the ends of two of her fingers): I don't know...
Me: Fingernail polish! That's my fingernail polish.... Why did you do that?
Nola: I didn't...
Me: Then how did it get there?
Nola: I don't remember....
Me (remembering she had had fingernail polish...) WHERE IS IT NOW?
Nola: I put it back on top of the microwave....
Me (after checking the safety of my polish) So how did that get on your fingers?
Nola: I didn't do it.... When I picked it up it must have just leaked out....
Me: Seriously? Leaked out? No it did not...
Nola: IT DID! It leaked on me so I put it back...
Me: No polish unless you ask first.
Nola: okay....

So they just lie. Is that the deal? For no good reason, they just lie like we're stupider than dirt and won't possibly be able to figure out the truth. Damn kids.... I realize I'm lucky there wasn't black fingernail polish on my new dining room table or all over the walls. (Walls that, by the way, have a lovely painting on them done in fabric paint that the manufacturers apparently decided to make with super glue so as to make it non-removable. Logan completed his masterpiece and then anxiously ran to me telling me he drew me a picture... Gee Thanks!)

Resolutions

A week late but that's okay. I have but one resolution this year. And it's one I've had for about five years now... and one that most everyone else in the country has as well....

I resolve to loose weight. I have a year. 52 weeks. And I need to loose about 50 pounds. So my resolution is to loose fifty pounds this year. That's one pound a week. And if I think of it like that it doesn't sound so overwhelming. And if I loose a few pounds a week here and there, that just lets me stay on track if I have a bad week! I just need to loose the weight by New Year's Eve 2011. If I complete this goal early... well, then hoo-rah for me!

So that's it. One goal for the year. And a whole year to get it done. I'm thinking positive on this plan and I think I can do it. Happy New Year!

It Begins Again

Okay - again... I will try to loose some weight. I have at least 50 pounds to loose. I guess I should do something more than crossing my fingers and wishing on stars. I sure wish I had a magic solution. I'm really too lazy to loose weight. I has taken me about 6 years to gather up all this extra poundage... Well, Wait. No, that's wrong. I'm the same weight as I was five years ago. I have gained and lost about 75 pounds in those five years, but I guess it was the two years prior when I gained the fabulous fifty. I've had two babies in those five years and I still weigh what I did pre-pregnancy. It doesn't look the same, but the numbers are the same. I haven't continued to gain weight I just haven't lost any (other than the small person that I gained during my first pregnancy - and I don't mean my kid!)

So again I will begin a mission of weight loss. What will I do? Nothing major. I'm just not the kind of person who can get into any routine if it's a drastic change from the norm. I have to take babysteps. So I will just pick a few lifestyle changes (maybe 5 or 6) and slowly incorporate them into my daily life.
Here are a few off the top of my head:
1. Ride my stationary bike for at least 15 min a day
2. Eat less (smaller portions)
3. Drink more water
4. Stop eating by a certain time (9pm)
5. Start walking more
6. Some kind of muscle training... they're in there somewhere...

Simple, yes. But am I doing any of them now? No.

First I will work on my bike riding. I love a challenge or a competition and my bike keeps track of mileage, calories, speed, all that jazz. So I'm going to unhook the bike's computer completely to reset the odometer and see how many miles I have to go to loose all this weight. I think I will be more prone to get on the bike if I'm trying to increase the mileage. Once I'm used to this step, in a few weeks, I will add another. Then another. I have started this type of system with my housework habits and it seems to be working for me. Most things just don't seem to work out for me. So I'm hoping since this baby-step plan is working in one aspect of my life it will also begin to work in another.

So, here I go.

Magical (Day Two)

So - aside from and handful or so of sunflower seeds at the end of yesterday I am still sticking to my plan. If you know me, that in and of itself is Magical!

I'm still hungry.

I have also been pretty diligent about exercising on the new Wii Fit we got for Christmas. I have really been sticking to a 30 min (or more) workout every other day. Sometimes every day. Yesterday I Wii'd it for over and hour. And today I've already logged in 35 min.! That thing will make you sweat if you choose the right 'games'.

So... what you've all been waiting for: have I lost any weight due to my Magical Leeks?
YES! I actually have!

I have lost THREE pounds since the day before yesterday. I expect another to be counted before the day is through. I think it will be a total of four. AND! I've lost NINE pounds (and possibly ten) since I've started working out on the Wii. Apparently I really just need to move my arse.

I still have 40 more pounds I want to loose to be at my pre-weight-gain-weight. When was that? I have no idea! Maybe in college? When I thought I was fat but SOOOO was not! I don't want to or even think I could, get back down to my highschool weight. That would mean another 60+ pounds I'd have to loose! I want to loose all my weight by the end of summer. That's about seven months. Roughly five and 1/2 pounds per month. Not at all impossible. So... here I go!

Magical (continued)

So I have stuck to my guns all day long! So far. I had another wonderful leek dinner. This time I prepared the leeks (warmed in microwave and topped with lemon juice, olive oil, salt & pepper) and them poured the hot broth over the top. An improvement for sure. And I was generous with the pepper.

By the way, I'm starving!

I have cheated by having coffee today. (any diet that makes me cut out my life's blood can go eF itself!) And I was very tempted to slap my daughter's hand and steal her cookie at snacktime! It smelled so good! And for dinner I decided to make them something that generally doesn't appeal to me, peanut better and jelly sandwiches. But for some reason those PB&Js looked like ambrosia today! I found myself wondering why in the world no one has ever thought to make peanut butter flavored coffee creamer... Since creamer is my only real source of flavor today, it has taken on new value. After a regular meal this may seem disgusting. But today- peanut butter flavored coffee sounds like a magical invention! Screw Magic Leeks!

Overall, it hasn't been so bad. Other than the starving feeling in my guts. But I will say that during my dinner "meal" I was very proud of myself for the first handful of bites I took. The pride slowly wore off and morphed into jealousy (of the peanut butter). And Nola was even offering me some of her food, which she NEVER does! Damn kids!

So... I guess that's all I have to say about my first Magical day.

Not So Magical!

So in the attempts to keep with my New Year's resolution of trying to loose weight I have tried the Magical Leek Soup jump start from the book, French Women Don't Get Fat.

Basically it's leeks boiled in water. You drink a cup of the broth every 2-3 hours and can have the boiled leeks (1/2 cup) at meal time with olive oil, lemon juice, salt and pepper. Not sure if I got my ratios of leeks to water correct or if it's just a flavorless concoction... but it definitely wasn't very magical. I did what they said with the leeks and that part was pretty good. The broth was bland and left me wanting more... So I ended up putting the last half of my seasoned leeks back into the broth to save it. Let's just say I finished it. But not with a smile on my face.

I will keep it up. It's only for a day and a half. I may break down. I may not. I will try my hardest. It's only a day and a half. It's only a day and a half! Only!

Wish me luck.

I haven't...

I haven't done much since the holiday season started...

I haven't blogged much at all. I haven't had time. It seems every day (and night) I've had to plan for the next day. What to pack for the kids, where we're going, who's coming here, what time we have to leave, will there be a nap time... It's been busy. But not too bad. I had a fun holiday overall. But I'm tired. AND - one night Kirk sat up and actually read my blog (he never had before I guess) and informed me that he thought it was boring. I guess it is. So I got a little turned off from writing for about 2 weeks...

I haven't lost any weight... The apple pie I made on Christmas is gone. I ate the last of it tonight, thank you very much! Most of the Christmas candy and cookies are gone. There is a tiny bit of ham left and still a few twice baked potatoes in the fridge. And we still have ice cream... But tomorrow is my big day. I'm supposed to really start my weight loss program. And by program I mean to NOT eat like a big fat pig anymore and to try and work out three times a week. We have an exercise bike in the basement (along with a slew of other weight training machines that are not mine and look like I could hurt myself on). I plan to get down there on Mon, Wed, and Fridays... We'll see how it works out. Kirk is supposed to watch the kids by himself for a hour on each of those days. And already he has 'things to do' tomorrow morning which cuts into my agreed upon time... but we'll work it out.

I also haven't done much in the way of my picture taking lately. I should be working on my photography stuff, but I'm not. I'm tired. Once I finally get everyone to sleep I just want to sleep myself. But I've found myself strangely addicted to Lifetime and Hallmark movies the past few days. Geez, they sure know how to make a love story that somehow includes Santa! I usually hate that kind of crap... But I've seen about 4 of them since Christmas! What's up with that? I need to read a book.

I guess that's about all for now...

Captured!

I found a good place to put the kids while I'm trying to get something done! Actually I put Logan in there (that's Nola's crib by the way) while I was doing laundry in her room and she wanted in too. So in she went! And off I went to grab the camera.

She's pretty funny these days when she wakes up... the other day she covered her face when I walked in to get her up from nap time (this was after she called for me) and said, "I'm still asleep! Go Away!" And this morning when I went in to get her she had peed through her diaper and told me she would just "Lay in my pee-pees a while." When she was ready to get up she said she would like to "go pee-pees in livin room now."

Oh, and it's Tuesday and I still haven't lost any weight. So I'm a looser. Boo Me. I'm not even going to post the regular stats - just know that I'm fat and bummed about it.

In other news...
I have about 10 squares started on my Starry Night blanket, will post more pics when it comes together more.
I still haven't finished my hair makeover... I am going to get it re-cut sometime soon and color it a very dark brown, will post pics of that if I ever get around to it.
I have to renew my drivers license before Nov. 4th because I'm a big old slacker and still have my old address and my maiden name on it! I've been married over 3 years! I just don't want to take any chances that I won't be able to vote. I will be lying about my weight to the License Bureau by the way.
Logan is laughing all the time now - it's really cute.

BL - BS

Well - it's Tuesday again... and I gained back another pound. What the hell people? Biggest Looser is taking on it's true meaning...

What a bunch of BS! Going up and down by a pound or two doesn't really mean much - just that I'm not loosing any weight! If I was thin and gained or lost a pound or two back and forth I wouldn't even care... but since I'm not thin... not even close, that pound is really pissing me off!

Hair Isn't Heavy

So in my efforts to cheat at weight loss I thought maybe my hair would earn me a pound or two lost... Well, apparently hair barely registers on the fat scale. No change in poundage after the big cut. DAMN! You see, I'm still trying to will away the weight... Haven't quite found it within myself to actually DO anything in my own favor.
Soon... Soon... soon...
Next week?
Today is Friday - why bother starting something new on a Friday? hee hee hee...
Well, because my Fridays are no different than my Mondays... or Thursdays... or Saturdays....!!!!!!!

I'm just lazy... Hence the fat!
I haven't even stuck to my plan of increasing my water intake... I'm just so tired all the time I drink coffee all day! I'm drinking coffee now! And somehow I seem to keep finding myself eating fast food. I'm not even buying it! People keep buying my lunch or dinner and it's fast food! It's hard to say no to free food of any kind... Especially when you're an overweight person who LOVES food!

OK. Here we go. Today. On a Friday, I will start something! Water. I have already had 2 glasses of water today... I will force myself to drink 6 more by bedtime... (I just chugged my coffee and went to get a glass of water - #3) Starting Monday I will add something else to my daily routine... maybe even exercise! And I will try and lay off the Fast food - even if its free.

Gonna Do It (I think...)

So.... I think I'm ready to cut my hair off again. When I was around 5 months pregnant with Nola (mid 2006) I went and had my long hair chopped off. I donated it to Locks of Love. I think I donated about 16 inches. It felt really good to do that. All the donated hair goes to children with medical reasons for hair loss to make wigs... what better reason to cut your hair?

So here we are again - me, with hair down to my ass and no time to do anything with it but put it back into a ponytail. I think I'm ready for a change... And not the "I'm a mommy now so I will get a generic short and easy hairdo" I want a funky cool hairdo that feels more like me. I will most likely be changing my hair color as well. Probably more than once, maybe two colors at once - who knows, I'm feeling crazy! But it will be different. I'm thinking that I will cut it just above collar length in the back and have the sides (front) come down a few inches longer. I do still need some of it to fit into a ponytail for my own sanity. Color... hmmm... I'm thinking something funky in that department too... Hey, I don't have a job - no one to answer to but my husband and the crazier the better as far as he's concerned.... which brings me to my next bit of news....

I'm getting my nose pierced. Stop right there and don't bother telling me you don't think that it's a good idea... I've thought it through for some time, and I'm doing it. So who cares... if it looks stupid, I'll make that call and then just take it out. But I think I'll like it.

Who knows when all this will take place... I found a salon that does free haircuts for the donation and they say I can walk in whenever.... But maybe the next time you see me I will be a different person... Well, not you Cayce because I'm coming over in a few hours....

Bonus - maybe my hair weighs a few pounds and I can 'cheat' in my weight loss!
Oh... here are my stats on me being a big ole looser:
This weeks pounds lost: 02 (gained!)
Total pounds lost: 24
Weight loss goal: 70
Pounds to go: 46

Pissed Off!

Ok - so I have 3 reasons why I'm pissed....

One - I started growing tomato plants from seeds (back in the spring with the girls when I had them both during the day). My plants were doing ok - but they never ended up doing good. In fact I got NO tomatoes at all! I had so many little seedlings that I gave some to my sister and my mom... I even plucked a few out of my garden later and shoved into an old pot full of dirt that used to be our ashtray. My plants did nothing, stopped growing and died. The ones beside the house that I NEVER checked on (in the old ashtray) grew up really big and tall but never gave a tomato. My sister looked good too, not sure if she got a tomato out of the deal either though. I've heard from several people that growing tomatoes from seed is almost impossible so I considered my meager accomplishment worthwhile... Until I went to my mom's house yesterday and saw this:

Yep - those are my seedlings... and that's around 6 feet tall or more! And she had a plate full of tomatoes in her kitchen! Those are MY tomatoes! I'm pissed!

Two - I weighed myself this morning and have GAINED 3 pounds since last week! What the hell? Technically I'm not counting today as my official weight, Tuesdays are my weigh in days... but I bet there will be a gain and not a loss on tomorrow's post! Super Pissed!

And Three - I was changing Logan's diaper yesterday after a marathon poop session... (he has had troubles in the pooping department so when he does go you have to just be patient and wait it all out... and have lots of wipes on hand). So he was laying there, no diaper on because I wasn't sure if he was finished yet (I've learned that if you put the new diaper on too soon during his poop sessions then you are just wasting diapers). I was talking to and looking up at Nola across the room when all of a sudden I felt the odd sensation... I was soaked! I've had pee trickle on me from him, or shoot out and hit the changing pad, but never like this... I think he whipped out a fire hose when I wasn't looking! And since I had my camera sitting right there, I decided to take a picture of my newly decorated jeans! I was Pissed ON!


Hopefully today is a better day - ha ha ha!

BL Tuesday

(that's Biggest Looser Tuesday)

So not a very productive week again. I did have my 6 week checkup today and all is well. I'm am officially recovered from the c-section and can do whatever I please. I guess that means there are no excuses any more... except life, kids, chores, cooking, cleaning, paying bills, eating, sleeping... Yeah - I'll find time to workout someday!

This weeks pounds lost: 01
Total pounds lost: 26
Weight loss goal: 70
Pounds to go: 44

Same as last week so I guess I need to do something different next week.
Goals for this week: Drink 10 glasses of water a day (80 ounces). Go on at least 2 long walks with the kids.
Hope for next week: 4 pounds!

No Loss

I need to start doing something in order to loose weight. I've done nothing so far and I haven't really lost any weight this week (I still have till Tuesday to weigh in, but so far, nothing). I think I need to start small and work in some simple things... I know I need to increase my water intake (and coffee apparently doesn't count). I used to drink loads of water every day, now it's coffee whenever I'm awake... just to stay awake.

I need to start walking more, but the stroller situation only allows me to go on walks with another person. So if Kirk is working (which is most of the time) I can't go. I need to start looking at garage sales for double strollers.

I also need to start cooking more and stop eating fast food. That should save me money as well!

Ok - well, I hear babies waking up so I best get off the computer and go get somebody.
Sorry so quick.

Biggest Looser!

Well - I'm a big fan of the Biggest Looser show that airs on Tuesdays for 2 whole hours... And since I'm needing to loose quite a bit a weight (baby weight and my own hard earned weight) I thought I would join in the Tuesday weigh-ins. Now, I'm not quite ready to post on here each Tuesday what exactly I weigh... but I will tell you how much I've lost. I haven't really started doing anything to loose weight yet - I'm still in the 6 week Cesarean recovery stage (one week to go). We've taken a few walks with the kids and that's about it. And as far as eating goes, I've made absolutely no effort there either yet. As of last week I had lost 24 pounds since delivery. And I'm pretty sure that all that was just bound to come off on it's own anyway.. but I'm still counting it. It helps in the motivation department!

This weeks pounds lost: 01
Total pounds lost: 25
Weight loss goal: 70
Pounds to go: 45

I think the effortless weight loss period is over. Now I need to step up my game and try to loose weight by actually doing something! Darn! If anyone wants to join in on my Biggest Looser plan - let me know!